Whaaat!!! That’s right! I bit my tongue a few times in the past weeks trying to keep it a secret, but here we are!
We’ve finally made a BABY! I still can’t believe I am writing those words. My husband and I are very excited, not to say over the moon, with this happy news. Our little one will join us in 2020 either in late May or early June (depending on when the baby decides to make its grand entrance!)
THE LUCKY MONTH!
We found out the big news in mid-September. The evening before finding out, my husband and I planned a hell of a romantic dinner with homemade ravioli, and we opened a good bottle of wine. I will always remember, the moment I drank the last few drops of wine in my glass, I had a slight doubt that it was going to be it for a long time. Let me tell you that I enjoyed them!
That month, I swore to myself that I was not going to do any pregnancy tests until the first day of my missed period. So, no ovulation test or any other tests. During that month, I decided I was taking a month off of tests for many reasons, but mainly because I had to stop stressing myself out with conceiving a baby… Because it only gets more difficult as months go by. Happily, the baby chose us to be its parents.
Well, I went a little crazy as soon as I found out the news! I did about 12 pregnancy tests over a few weeks to make sure everything was ok and also to reassure myself. Hahaha!
It was hard to believe. We kept the secret up until week 8th with our parents and close family members as I was afraid it would happen again.
LIVING IN FEAR
Even to this day, I feel like I am walking on eggshells. I was terrified to announce it, scared to “jinx” the news. I read a lot on the subject, and it’s how most women feel when they have had a previous miscarriage.
Every day that passed by during the first trimester was getting me a little closer to my dream. It would happen — one day at a time.
It takes a lot of patience, but fortunately, our baby is growing. A few weeks ago, we even saw baby for the first time. It was so exciting to see its very strong heartbeat, and that baby was moving its arms. (Ohhhhhh, I think I’m going to cry – of pure happiness.)
OUR LITTLE BUNDLE OF JOY
When we saw baby on the screen, that’s when we realized it was true. Hard to understand that there’s a growing baby in your tummy during the first trimester. Other than all the side effects (I will tell you more about my first trimester soon), there’s not much that you can see concretely.
That said, I intend to share this beautiful season of life with you. As I kept the secret from you for many weeks, I now feel ready to share my journey with you, every step on the way! ?
I also know that a pregnancy announcement can be difficult to hear for many of us who are waiting for their little miracle. Conceiving certainly is a long and bumpy journey, but there’s hope. Soon you will too have a little spark of happiness growing inside of you.
With all my love. xxx